december 31, 2010

Looking back on 2010.

So much have happened during 2010 I don't even know where to start. In may I began my new job in the next town over, 100 km one way also ment spending three hours in the car every day. That was three hours away from home and family. When I got home it was time for the boys to g to bed and I became a weekend-mom :(. Though I had lovely co-workers there were other aspects of the job I didn't much like. Finding a new job closer to home proved to be difficult.

Mother, who has been battleing cancer for quite some time got worse and we found out that the cancer had spread to her lungs and abdomen. She started on a new treatment and we all tried to keep our hopes up.

On a bright note my brother finally became a deacent man when he got married in august =).

Shortly thereafter we all had to realize that mother was loosing her stuggle to the cancer that was spreading to her spine. Work was so busy that there were no time to spend elsewhere and mother lives 250 km away. I hardly slept, my stomach started acting up and my mood shifted every minute it seemed. In september my grandmother took ill and in october she got diagnosed with pancreotic cancer, same as mother. She is getting treatment but since it is unoperable we all know how it is going to end :(.

Sewing has been so far in the back of my head that nothing has been done. I just haven't had time, energy or inspiration to sew even though the will has been there.

In november I cought a brake and was offered a new job much closer to home, starting januari 3:rd 2011. Most of december I've been able to spend with mother. She is now hospitalised and in a wheelchair but occasionally spends a day at home with dad and help. We've had a lovely christmas together, my grandparents, my parents, my brother and his wife and me and my husband and our sons. I know that 2011 also will be a rough year but with the new job at least there will be time left for something else then just work. Just being with mom makes me wanna start on new quilting projects, she is such an inspiration,even in her sickness.

So, 2010 has been a year of tears; tears of joy, tears of exhaustion, tears of pain, tears of happiness, tears of anger, tears of frustration but most of all... tears of love.

I wish you all a HAPPY NEW YEAR! May it be blessed and filled with joy!


3 kommentarer:

  1. Det gör mej så ont att läsa att läget förvärras för Mamma och nu också Mormor. Men det glädjer mej att ni trots alla motgångar klarar att glädjas tillsammans. En kram till dej och ge Mamma en stor kram från mej och ett grattis till jobbet närmare hemmet. Kram och Gott nytt år önskar Anne-Marlen

  2. En VARM kram till er alla från oss här i Arvidsjaur. Ni finns i våra tankar hela tiden, önskar precis som du att avstånden till och från oss alla inte vore så långt. "Fånga dagen" och ha det så bra som ni bara kan. "Vi höres" Eva och Bosse